So I kept meaning to post for the longest time however, since A. I felt like I was oc posting in Dec and since B. I didn't have/make time to, I didn't. Anyway, I'm kind of glad that I didn't because perhaps it would have made me dwell on not so positive things. Meanwhile, I visited A2 this past weekend and for so many reasons I was so glad that I decided to do it. For one thing, I loved the randomness of it all. I mean I had been thinking about it not so seriously prior to my cruise, but in the airport on the way home, I was like, "I think I'm going to come visit this week" and I did! I mean just like that. I think I crave spontaneity more and more at this stage in my life and was pleased to have done something that involved practically no planning or foresight. Very uncharacteristic of me. More importantly, I was very warmed by the beautiful faces, open hearts and homes, and again, all of the randomness I enjoyed. Things were so simple, but simply perfect in giving me exactly what it was that I needed. --Which was even more incredible seeing as I knew that I was unhappy and discontent, and consequently felt guilty for feeling that way when there is so much in my life that I have to be grateful for, especially during these tremendously arduous times, yet had no clue how to feel better. That was a long sentence. All that was to say, I needed some medicine, didn't have a prescription, and my visit was just what the doctor ordered. While, as always, I wish I could have stayed longer and in hindsight think that giving the heads up (albeit potentially short notice) would have enabled me to see more people and for longer amounts of time, I'm glad for how things turned out. Surprisingly, I learned a good deal of things I didn't expect to, I felt a re-fortification of some of my relationships, and an overall renewed appreciation and satisfaction of others. It was really good. Idk. Going on this trip and also coming home to friends and fam and continuing on this high of a good time made me realize something else. For the longest, I was apprehensive about starting work for a whole host of reasons. And while in some ways I still am, I figured out that working doesn't necessarily mean a death sentence to my social life. In fact, having a real and steady income can surely enhance it. So...yeah. Plus, I decided maintaining a healthy work-life balance is up to me. The end.
and in the words of a friend who i unfortunately missed this weekend, kluvubye!
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